LONG LIVED PHANTOM

People, they hurt me, they're trying to kill me, I'm seeing a dark shadow up everywhere... People, they're trying hard to push me, But, here I'm standing , not afraid of dying!! They say, I can't rise!! They say, I'm abandoned by my stitches!! But, I'm not, And I'll not let them decide it for me... People, they're throwing a million dozen hatred at me, I'm running to get myself out of their sins... People, they're trying hard to crush me, But, here I'm standing, not letting them hit me anymore... They say, I can't run!! They say, I'm abandoned by my stitches!! But, I'm not, And I'll not let them decide it for me... People, they ask me to bury my face, And now, I feel existence more compelled... People, they are dragging me to end, But, here I'm standing strong against their will... They say, I shouldn't live!! They say, I'm abandoned by my ...

I wonder, what's there in life that makes me feel still alive... I wonder, why I sob, when all I'm advised is to be a knight!! No matter , what I feel, I'm advised to not be tenuous... I'm bruised!! And they say, "Tonight, you heal!! " I'm bruised!! I'm weak!! I feel so tenuous!! I'm fragile, Imbibing no light And they say, "Tonight, you heal!!" No matter, how I feel, I'm not allowed to touch my stitches!! No matter, how hard the pain is, I'm not allowed to settle, to stop!! I'm bruised!! And they say, "Tonight, you heal!!" The air is getting colder, The sky is getting darker... My skin is bleeding... And I'm advised not to give up!! I'm not allowed to scream for mercy, I'm prohibited from awakening... I'm still bruised!! And now they yell, "Stop Exaggerating!!"

HOW EMPTY MY HEART FEELS, ONCE CRAVED FOR SOMETHING DIVINE THE WALLS HAVE ALMOST COLLAPSED NOW THE BLOOD ISN'T SEEING A WAY TO FLOW, IT'S STILL!! IT'S CRAVING FOR A MOTION!! IT'S DEGRADING!! IT SMELLS LIKE A ROTTEN MEAT!! IT'S TERRIBLE!! What's this craving all about?? Money / Love / Good Food / A Trip once in a year and many more, I see. Can you differentiate between falling in love and being in love OR you consider it the same thing?? Huh?? I consider and I see myself falling in love so many times, sometimes it's about a particular character in a film or book / a personality in a real life or maybe a piece of work. I write stories and leaves them in between and then, starts working for something else and then leaves that too in between. Then, I feel like resuming the first work . Like, I'm falling for it again. Yeah!!  But, being in love requires "Devotion" , it requires "Commitment" and it require...

        We have seen people advising others that "Don't get satisfied with whatever you have right now, because then you'll stop working for tomorrow, to achieve more better." Well, This is really hard because I partially agree with this too .  But, I feel you definitely should acknowledge your work, your progress and your success. And for me, being satisfied with your current ( organic ) situation is same like a step forward to reward or acknowledge your success. And that's very important because if u'll not respect your earnings , the motive is useless. But, if we'll be satisfied with it, then will turn it as our comfort zone and we'll not push ourselves further to do more.  For that you need to trust the process because I feel no matter how much we put our efforts in our work, we never get the whole 100% desired success in it. You'll always find a deficit in it and that's the driving force. That's how nature work...